ANAPILAKSIS

I tried to close the door today. like a thousand dying fireflies slowly swiveling through the dark. Their fading light are as bright as the twilight. As thick as the swimming trees in the park. I tried to run today and stumbled, like a thousand freedom doves gliding underground. My heart and soul achingly crumpled, uttered a little squeak, a nomad home-bound. I tried to sing my song for you like a thousand dolphins echoing echelons in the battlefield Gliding through the waves underneath the moonlit sky but your ears and stone-cold heart  are thickly sealed. and that was probably my last try.

paano ko sasabihin sa katabi kung sing dilim ng gabi paano ko sasabihin sa kaharap di makitang hinaharap paano mo ako makikita kung sing lamig mo ang klima paano mo malalaman sinisigaw ng kalamnan paano kita mamahalin kung singsing mo'y di tatanggalin paano mo ko mamahalin kung ako ay may ibang kapiling paano kung tayo talaga sa ibang oras, mundo at umaga paano kung magkadapuwang ang mga kamay nating... di magtatagpo ngayong umaga.

When you dreamt someone and then you woke up...changed and confused. As if the dream was your life, the truth, and the ones you have now seems to be the wind. You know it is there but can barely touch it, feel it. Was your dream your alternate life? Or its just an illusion that keeps feeding your selfish heart. It seemed real. I don't want to wake up.